Last Updated on November 28, 2020 by Kari
Last night I had a dream. It’s a recurring dream. I’m trying to get back into working at the longest-running job I’ve had in my life – a housekeeper at a hospital. I worked there from 18 to 30 while I went to college three times and tried to figure out what I really wanted to do with my life. In the dream, management doesn’t want me there, I haven’t got paid for the work I’ve done, and I’m desperately trying to get hours. I always hate the fact that I’m back there and have given up on what I really want to do with my writing. When I wake up, I have the worst feeling. But, I know what the dream means. I always have this dream when I’m feeling like I’m failing with my blogging or writing in some way.
I’m Trying To Force Myself To Do Things I’m Not Interested In
There are many reasons for this dream occurring, but this time I think it’s because I feel like I’m failing at a few goals and rules I put on myself.
Because I’m part of the Mindvalley Quest All Access Pass, I sometimes feel like I have to do every quest and class they offer or I’m not making the most of the pass. Especially this year where my husband lost his job and the finances have changed in our home. I feel as if I need to make the most out of every penny we’ve spent, and I’m trying to force myself to do things that I’m not interested in. In part, that includes finishing courses and books that I’m not vibing with.
I also feel like I want to review every Mindvalley quest and offering because this review site has been so heavily focused on Mindvalley. I often get questions about a Mindvalley course that I haven’t tried yet, and I feel like I should be able to answer them.
I also have the self-imposed rule to finish every book I start reading. That’s why last night I beat myself up again as I tried to read a book that I’ve been trying to force myself to read for a MONTH… and two days. It’s been just over a month of, mostly, not being interested in the book but scolding myself to read and finish the book so that I don’t waste the money I spent on it and the time I’ve already put into it.
So, when I woke up from my nightmare last night, I decided that I was going to stop forcing myself to read that book and do the Mindvalley courses that I don’t like because it’s wasting my time, stressing me out (I’m currently losing hair because of stress, but that’s for another article), and holding me back in some way.
I decided that instead of reviewing them fully, I will write about why I can’t finish them, which will at least make my time spent with them a little worthwhile.
3 Mindvalley Courses That I’ve Started But Haven’t Finished
As I said, I’m part of the pass that gives me access to almost all Mindvalley courses, and I’ve felt like I’ve needed to take every single course whether I resonate with it or not. I have pretty much completed all the courses, but there are a few that I either don’t need, like, or put the energy into.
1. Conscious Uncoupling
I started taking Conscious Uncoupling on January 13th, 2020, and I’m on day 14 at the end of November.
The course is about going into and getting through a breakup without the common pain, self-loathing, anger, resentment, and other negative feelings that come with the breakup.
It doesn’t resonate with me because I’ve already learned how to deal with breakups in a way that’s more empowering to me. I long ago realized that breakups were times of growth and reassessment.
Plus, I haven’t had a breakup in over 15 years!
So what she’s talking about doesn’t interest me at all. I know that the information in the quest could help someone who is in pain from a breakup and wants to work through it, which is why I want to take the quest and review it. But, it just doesn’t interest me at all and I haven’t been able to force myself to sit down and listen to it.
Plus, I find her a little annoying, which doesn’t help anything.
Going through the community, I can see that some people are benefiting from the quest. They are shifting their beliefs around themselves, their partner or ex, and the relationship, which is helping them move forward with more clarity and positivity. So, it’s not a bad course for people who need it.
I would say that the biggest thing is you need to be open to thinking differently. I could see someone going into this course hating their ex and fully blaming them and not resonating with one thing she said. It’s important to stay open-minded.
If you are interested, you can check out the masterclass for this quest here. If you do, and you take the quest and enjoy it, please come back and let me know how you felt about it.
I’m supposed to like WildFit. That’s what everybody tells me. It’s one of the top-rated quests on Mindvalley, so I should find it fascinating and want to try it and review it. But, I don’t. I’m on day 11 of 90 and I have no desire to keep going with this quest. Interestingly, I enjoyed day 10 but on day 11 I pretty much had enough.
I liked Eric Edmeades in a talk he did on health during Mindvalley University, so I thought I would give his course a try. I desperately tried to listen to it and follow along with the rules he put forward, but I just couldn’t do it.
What’s worse is that he makes you feel like a failure if you can’t follow along with his program because, according to him, it’s so easy and proven to work and is the only way to move forward for better health… so I was beating myself up for not wanting to go forward with it. I hate feeling like a failure – in the sense that I don’t even try – and it was eating me up to not start and try out this WildFit way of eating.
But, the bottom line is that I don’t want to. Maybe someday down the line I will, but it’s just too stressful for me to do right now.
I’m already trying to do other things that I need to do for the aspects of my life that desperately need to improve quickly thanks to COVID and changes in the way we are living.
Thanks to WildFit, I’ve learned that changing the way I eat, which I feel is pretty healthy already, is not something I want to do right now.
Eric Edmeades says that some meat products are essential to the human diet and that many of his vegan students end up adding them to their diet. He himself was vegan at one time and no longer is.
This doesn’t appeal to me at all. I feel like there are ways to get everything you need in your diet, even if it takes a little more effort and time as a vegan, and I’m just not interested in adding meat products to my diet.
That said, a lot of people really do seem to like WildFit. There are a lot of positive stories in the community and it’s often recommended to students of Mindvalley who haven’t taken it yet.
WildFit is not part of the all-access pass, but it does have a masterclass like all the other quests on Mindvalley. Again, if you try it and think it’s great, please come back and let me know your thoughts.
3. The New Psychology Of Winning
I really like this quest, but I can’t seem to sit down and do it. I’m on day 20 of 82, and I started on August 1 of 2019!
The quest is done by Denis Waitley, and it alternates between a video and audio lesson each day.
The advice given is good. It’s meant to help you develop a winner’s mindset and way of doing things.
I’m not even sure if this quest is still available to students who get the all-access pass or if it just happens to be in my dashboard because I’ve had the pass for so long.
There is no masterclass for this quest that I can find, so it may not be available anymore.
In any case, even though it’s a few minutes per day, I haven’t sat down and done it and it’s been making me feel bad for a long time. I had set a goal to finish it by the end of last year and I never did, and even thinking about that makes me feel a little sick. I need to let myself off the hook with this one.
The Book I Can’t Finish
I have been trying to read a book called Meant For More for a month. It’s got great reviews on Amazon, and I figured it would help me create a service or product that I could eventually offer online besides just writing. But, it hasn’t done that.
I desperately want to create a product or service that will help other people and earn me an income at the same time. That’s my goal. I’ve been trying to think of something to offer, besides my reviews and articles, for years! That’s why I picked up this book. But, it’s just not happening for me.
The book starts out with developing a mindset that you have something to offer. I already have that to some degree.
Then it’s supposed to help you figure out the irresistible offer that will help other people and allow you to create a lucrative business, but it’s just not resonating with me. I’ve gone through the steps, but I don’t come out with some irresistible offer.
Despite having the steps laid out for me, I can’t figure out what I could offer other people in regards to my passions, besides my insights and reviews… which I’m already doing.
I’m at the point in the book where we are supposed to have our irresistible offer already, and because I don’t, it’s just getting annoying to me.
There is even a complementary course that goes along with this book and I’m just not interested enough to try it.
I’m disappointed that I’m stuck in this place where I can’t come up with an offer that would actually inspire and help other people. I’ve learned and experienced so much in my life, but I feel like I don’t have an offer.
I think this book would help someone get jazzed about their talents and earning an income off them. And I’m sure that some people are coming up with a product or service from the steps laid out in this book. But, it’s just not in the cards for me.
All I can think about is my reviews and writing and how those are the things I need to be focusing on, so that’s what I’m going to keep doing for now.