The last time I wrote about trying to do 7 courses at once, I said I had an epiphany. The words ‘take it seriously’ came into my life and I thought it meant I needed to get down to work and finishing everything I had set out to accomplish. So, I put a ton of pressure on myself to get down to work and take everything (way too) seriously.
I Still Wasn’t Feeling Well
I had mentioned that my hypothyroidism was acting up and I wasn’t feeling well. Well, that stuck around and kept me from being able to do the things I wanted to do, including challenging myself to do the 7 Mindvalley courses at once.
I did manage to finish The Yoga Quest, but that was relatively easy because it was something I did as an exercise each morning.
For the rest of the day, I usually didn’t have the energy or the ability to focus and get stuff done – and that was frustrating on many levels.
I Started To Think Negative Thoughts About Myself And What I Was Doing With My Life
Here’s the biggest drawback I found of trying to challenge myself to do too much at once. I started to get upset with myself.
I was upset that I wasn’t able to do what I had set out to do and that led to thoughts about all the times I wasn’t able to do what I had set out for myself. That led to a pity party which led to even more negative thoughts.
Before I knew it, I wasn’t able to do anything. I was in such a negative self-talk loop that I couldn’t bring myself out, even with all of my lessons from Marisa Peer and other teachers about speaking to yourself differently.
I Started To Get Anxiety
I felt like a failure because I was so far behind in the challenges that I had set out for myself this month. And that caused anxiety.
I haven’t had this kind of anxiety before. I’ve had anxiety once in a while over the years when a stressful time comes. But this is something constant and terrifying. I feel tense and anxious for what seems like no reason – and it’s scary. My heart is beating too fast. My body feels weird. It’s not something I want to have on a consistent basis, or ever really.
I realized that the words ‘take it seriously’ were still relevant, but they were meant for my health as well as my work and personal development. Challenging myself to do too much was causing my work, personal development, and health a lot of harm. I need to take how I approach balance in my life more seriously.
I’ll Be Doing One To Two Courses Going Forward
For now, I’m going to focus on Hero, Genius, Legend because that was my favorite out of the courses I have left. I know that a newer version of Becoming Limitless starts later this month, so I’ll probably start that quest too. But I’m not going to push myself to do too many things at once.